I will never come close to winning the best mother award, I am the farthest from perfect of any human, but I did try to teach you all wrong from right. So when I see you all making decisions that might hurt you it hurts me. When I see you following in my foot steps, it hurts me, and when I see you making the same mistakes I made, it hurts me.
The disappointment I feel is never towards either of my girls, the disappointment I feel is towards myself because of my mistakes I caused you to make your mistakes. We all have second, third, fourth, and on and on of chances to make up for what we did wrong but we first have to acknowledge that the paths we are taking are the wrong paths and we have to turn back. And I can't do that for my girls, they have to do it themselves and that is the difficult part to watch.
I think about all the things I wanted to do with my girls but I put off and now I live with the regret of not doing what I should have done and it kills me. I try to make up for it but I do believe at times it's too late. If you are a mother of young children don't make the same mistakes I made, put those little ones first. Make time to always do today what you think you have time for tomorrow because tomorrow doesn't care of all your good intentions. Tomorrow eats you up alive if you don't take advantage of today.
Marisol
