Gift

I gave you best gift I could give you, I gave you your father. My mom gave us back my dad I don't know if it was a good or bad thing. I gave you back your dad and it was a good thing. Both my mom and I started off for the same reason, we wanted our husbands we wanted our families. In the end it wasn't for us it was for our children.

When I see my girls interact with their father I know I did the right thing. I know that fighting for him was the right thing to do for my girls.My intentions were to keep my family together. I didn't want to lose my extended family either. I love my brother in law and his family as they were my own blood. I could not see losing them, so I fought, I fought with all I had to keep my husband mine. Now five years later I see that my fight did not go in vain because no matter how I feel about him or my marriage, it brings joy to my heart knowing that he has been a great father to his daughters.

My dad says, and I know other men feel the same way, "si no se quiere la vaca, no se quiere la cabra" (if you don't love the cow, you don't love the calf). And it's true that is why we have a generation of fatherless children.Most men work that way, it's the wrong thing to do. The childr/ren are the blame, the father's blood still runs through their veins but the father walks away never turning back.I know my husband didn't turn back when his girls needed a heater, a television, or a window in the car.I know many of my friends' ex's do not help with their children and it is heartbreaking.My cousin's father used her name for his step-daughter's insurance how low can you go?

I know when my husband and I first reunited my girls resented it and didn't understand my decision because of all the pain we all suffered and we were broken. It didn't feel like glue was going to stick. There still many missing pieces and some pieces might have been found but will never fit the same again.It's okay because we all scars on our hearts.But one day they, You Nicole and Tatiana, will realize that if Dad and I hadn't gotten back together you wouldn't have had a dad that would die for you, that would do anything in his power to support you in any way. You wouldn't have a man to call Daddy. I only want one day for you to realize that although my intentions might have been selfish in the end it was a gift for my girls.

Marisol