Love

There is no love like loving your child/ren. I remember after my mom passed away family members would tells us, "Your momma, she loved you so much" it made me feel weird, like I knew she loved us. I felt like the person telling us didn't feel love from their mom, I know it sounds weird but I never understood why people would tell us. Now I hope when I pass, people remind my girls how much I loved them. Because they are the reason I live, even now that they are adults. I think I love them more although I do miss them being younger.

The day I brought home Nicole from the hospital, I never wanted to let her go. I still have that feeling like if she was just born. I remember thinking, how did my mom let us go. There is no love like loving a child. When we were preparing for Tatiana, I was worried that I couldn't love a second child like I love Nicole but there is so much love to give them both. My love for them overflows. There are days when I do get angry at them, but I can never stay angry at them. I guess because my mom could stay angry at us for days and weeks that I never wanted my girls to experience that kind of anger, I could even call it hate. They know it too, they know that I can't be angry at them for long.

The love I have for my girls has taught me to love others. I love my Isaac and Aly so much. I love my Nate, Sophia, and new baby so much. It kills me that I am missing out on my Wyatt, Azalea, Madisyn, and Ashlyn. There is so much love I have for them.

Time is a thief, enjoy your babies. Enjoy every minute you have with them. Don't allow your anger to take from the precious time you have with them because before you know it, they will fly the nest and all you have are memories and regrets of wasted time.

I love my girls. I love their laughter. I love their silliness. I love how they have become independent young ladies. I love their beauty and their smiles. I love them.

Marisol